To Whom It May Concern:
It’s been a minute since I’ve posted on G&D. It pains me, it is my child. That being said I’ll get straight to the point:
I’m going on vacation. I can’t devote the proper amount of attention to this site, MOD or my writing right now. As most of you know I’ve been in a writing slump for quite some time–and I guess I was hoping maybe it would lift in time for the new year and I would have a ton of new content for G&D, new submissions, new jet sets…but it just isn’t happening that way. So I’m taking six months to recalculate, reacquaint myself with my muse, re-launch and revive. The guilt that overwhelmed me when G&D went without updates finally came to a head when I realized I needed to take a step back and give myself room, without detailing every bit in G&D posts–this is not a diary, it’s a description of artistic faith, after all.
It’s been fairly quiet on the music front in my neck of the woods, I’ve yet to complete a single submission so far this year and MOD, as of right now, is effectively suspended until further notice. My book will still be available but as for the rest of it I don’t have the energy or frankly the desire right now to do a full-scale launch. I once had a very specific dream of what I wanted to be creatively and publicly. Now I’m not sure where that dream lies. Consider this a pilgrimage to find out where it went.
I guess to be fair I could say that I have an entire book’s worth of work in a little green folder next to my computer. It was written during a few of the most dire months of my life last year. It needs editing, focus. One day it’ll come out but I’m just not excited enough to chronicle it here right now. I guess I should say it’s not that I DON’T write, I’m just not excited about anything, there’s no passion. I can’t keep promising and not delivering. It sort of ruins my credibility.
So, to whom it may concern, I thank you, but I’m checking out for a minute. Keep creating, keep believing. I’ll catch up with you soon enough.
March 7th, 2010 at 7:49 pm
i too understand, a slump is a nasty thing. same boat, without paddle. Please let me know if there is anything we can do to help you. thanks you for being you.
btw who is your muse?
March 7th, 2010 at 7:58 pm
This blog has always been about the journey of you as an artist. I fully believe times like this are part of the journey as well, and I’m grateful you’ve shared this, too. I’m looking forward to seeing what comes next. Thank you!
March 7th, 2010 at 9:58 pm
Y’know… I’ve been feeling much the same for the last month or so. I keep telling myself “inspiration will come again – it’ll come”. But it hasn’t. Neither has motivation. You should definetely take some time to try to rework your thoughts and plans. “Shut out the world and live underneath the city”, so to speak… Its not a selfish thing at all to nurture oneself. Its an absolute necessity if dreams are to live on in this world. Take it easy – we’ll be waiting patiently, nonetheless
March 7th, 2010 at 10:05 pm
I wrote out this nice, long comment and it didn’t even publish… Ugh. But basically, all I wanted to say was you’ve taken the words right out of my mouth. You won’t be alone on this ‘vacation’… I’ve been here a month already. <3
March 8th, 2010 at 8:19 am
Fear not. Sometimes an extended hiatus is what you need to refuel the creative tank. Take your time.
March 8th, 2010 at 8:47 am
Blog are so easy to launch and it is so easy to think that those posts will just flow like Niagara-but it doesn’t always work that way. Being one of those people who loves the sound his own voice, the daily ramble is pretty easy for me. But on those rare occasions when I have sat down and said-I’m going to write about THIS everyday, then I tend to stumble.
Enjoy your time off, read Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott and Stephen King’s On Writing. The Ode Less Travelled: Unlocking the Poet Within by Stephen Fry is the only book on poetry I have tried to read-and I couldn’t quite get through it, but what I did read was kind of fun.
I always liked the idea of tying people up and forcing them to listen to my poetry, like the Vogon did in Hitchhiker’s Guide-but maybe that’s a little too much information.
March 8th, 2010 at 11:09 am
We’ll miss you. I hope you find what you’re looking for.
March 8th, 2010 at 11:33 am
i hope you find what you are looking for…or that it finds you…write me a postcard
love you
natascha
March 12th, 2010 at 12:16 am
Hang in there love! I’ve missed your writing but I know it will come to you in time and when it does you’ll be an insomniac with it! Good vibes your way! <3